ArjunPari#40 Friday 05July2013 It is time to LEAVE.. Will miss you guys.. I will try to come soon..

I was a little bit free. I was at Pari's desk. She was in a hurry to finish all her work. I enquired her why she was in a hurry.
'I have to catch a train!' She said.
I remembered that she has to meet her cousin. I offered her help but she refused it and she did it all in time.

She was asking someone to go along with her. She wanted to have some food and then to station. My luck!! Everyone other than Kiran was busy. I was happy that it was only him. We were packing to leave. I and Pari were waiting for him to come. He came there, with a sad expression.
'I wish I could come with you Pari, to say Bye to you.. But....'
'But?” She smiled.
'I suddenly got some work and I have to stay back' I understood that he was acting smart to let both of us leave without him. I have to let him come. I alone with Pari.. No...
'It’s okay! We will come early tomorrow and I will help you buddy.' I showed out an evil smile.
'No! I am in hurry. You people leave.' He waved a bye and rushed to his cubicle.

My love Guru, is always smart enough to create situations for me.
'We will never fall for the same girl. And if you fall for one, I will be there to guide you.'
He will be there even if I don't want him to.

We went to Uncle’s tiffin stall, she wanted to eat there. We were seated there. There was a thing that I was curious to know.
‘Are you thinking about your cousin?’
‘Yeah..’ She smiled and said ‘I am thinking how to say a ‘No’ without hurting him.’ She continued.
‘Shall I say that I don’t have any feelings for him.. or .. I don’t want him as a husband.. or..’
She spoke out many options. Every reason looked genuine and sincere to me, because I wanted her to say a ‘No’ to him. I was feeling happy and excited inside.
We had a lot, he cooks in such a way. He has a golden hand which brings taste to the food. And the only thing I know the best, is eating.. :D I was curious if Pari knows cooking.
‘It is delicious. I feel eating more. I was curious if you knew how to cook?’
She smiled ‘Not a lot.. Hmm this is a good reason to escape marriage Arjun..!’. I smiled.

We were in a bus to railway station. She was into thoughts and I didn't interrupt her.

We were standing and waiting for the train to arrive. I went and got a water bottle for her. She already packed few books for her. There was announcement that the train was about to arrive.
‘I am not sure if I can a say a ‘No’ to my Dad. It is difficult, I have to think about him again..’
My heart was beating faster in pain and the sound of arriving train was increasing.
‘I may say a ‘Yes’ . I don’t know.. Am not sure.!!’
I don’t know what to say but I have to say something good. I can’t disappoint her as a friend. Also I cannot hurt myself. I was in a bad shape but I have to speak.
‘Whatever decision you take.. Be confident about it.. Make sure, that you will be happy for that decision..’  I forced a smile. What did I say now? Did I encourage her to take whatever decision she wanted? What did I do?
She got into the train. ‘It is time to leave.. Will miss you guys.. I will try to come soon.. Enjoy the wedding!’ She said those words and disappeared inside.

I sat down there. ‘I may say a ‘Yes’ .’ those words were playing in my ears repeatedly. The train was leaving, I felt as if she was leaving me and I was helpless. My heart was frozen now, in disbelief that she said that. I never thought that my love story would be out of my control some day. This was the day and I couldn't do anything but to feel bad.


I did not realize that it was already an hour, until Kiran called me to come back soon. “I may say a ‘Yes’”. “I may say a ‘Yes’” I slept with an effort.

-Arjun Krishna