ArjunPari#57 Monday 22July2013 No more dreaming Arjun! Its the Mourning Monday! Wake up!!

I didn't know that I was dreaming until Kiran woke me up.

'No more dreaming Arjun! It's the Mourning Monday! Wake up!!'

'It is a very nice day.. I had a very good dream.'

'I knew that you were dreaming!' Kiran smiled.

'Oh God! It was a very good dream..'

'Stop that and get ready for the office' Kiran was in a very good mood, looked like he had a call with Mounica. How is this guy managing to talk with her.. Ooh long distance relationships!

By the time I came out of bathroom he prepared breakfast for us along with our cook. It was a feast but not the breakfast. We ate too much and reached office. I and Kiran were in an excited state and people could see that. It was all yesterday's comedy effect. We were cracking jokes and roaming all around the office.

Pari came near me and asked curiously 'What dream was that?'

'What dream?' I enquired.

'Kiran said that you had a very good dream today and that is why you are so happy today!'

Kiran! I am going to kill you. I can't share that dream with her. That’s related to her.

'Oh! I don't want to speak about it! Not with you!'

'Arjun! Am curious! It is fine.. Please go ahead!'

I started narrating 'I was in Delhi' She was smiling at me 'You were looking at me and your Dad!'

'My Dad? Did you ever see him?'

'Yes I did! In pictures'

'Oh great! Please continue!'

'He said that I am a good guy and I deserve you!'

'Oh oh! Enough!' She stopped listening and went to her desk.

I don’t know what she felt. But she knows that I always think, dream, like, love her. But she never said that she loves me too.

Am I creating problem in her life or I am making her feel good. I am not able to understand her feelings. Shall I ask her or shall I wait? I was a bit confused. I never thought that I would express it to her but I did. She bought courage to my life and now I am curious how she feels.

She was not disappointed with my dream. Everything was normal between us but I was very curious to know what she thinks about me and my feelings. When to ask? Where to ask? Questions and Questions were flowing through my brain but I couldn't get an answer.

I was about to leave and Pari was busy with her work. I was waiting for Kiran to come and Pari was there. She said these words 'Arjun! Wanted to say something! I could see that you like me a lot and I like it too. But am not sure about us! Am not sure that it is you that I want to have in my life. I would never want to hurt you. That’s all. I will see you tommorow!' I smiled at her saying 'See you everyday' and she went back to her desk. Kiran came near me and dragged me to the room.

I was feeling great that she said those words, I was not in pain now. I was feeling like a kid again. I was happy because now I knew what she feels for me. She likes me but doesn't want to keep me in imaginations which will hurt me if something goes wrong, which clearly says that she cares about me and she will never hurt me. I am happy. Very Happy!

-Arjun Krishna

ArjunPari#56 Sunday 21July2013 I Love you Arjun! I will be always yours! See you Every day!

I was staring her play and she was not aware. I joined her. I stood in front of Krishna and he stopped me and asked 'Did you both have a fight?'.

I stopped and asked curiously 'Who?'. Pari was listening too.
'Didi(Sister) and You?' He shouted and Kiran was also listening now.

'Why did you get that doubt?' I questioned him.

'Because you were staring at her as if you are going to beat her!' I was in surprise about what he said. How did he know that I was staring her? This little Devil!

Kiran started laughing on me, Pari smiled at us and went away.

I was explaining to Krishna that there is nothing like that and begged him to concentrate on the game now.

It was a funny day today. We were laughing all the time and Krishna was making fun out of me. Pari and Kiran enjoyed a lot. I was the Nitrous oxide(Laughing gas) in the Environment these days. I was wondering how I will manage my feelings now. These days my feelings have become an open exhibition and everyone is smiling or laughing at my madness. I have realized now that once we express out our feelings it is impossible to hide them, How hard we may try! How hard!

This was not an issue for my life but, there is a corner of my heart which feels that there are also chances that I may not have her and that was a big issue.

We were standing near her building and were saying a goodbye. All the thoughts flowing in my mind were making me dream about things.

'I Love you Arjun! I will be always yours! See you Every day!'

But the reality was

'Bye Arjun! See you!'

I stood there without answer staring into nothing. After I came to real world. I said a good bye and reached our room. I was still wondering when will I hear such words from Pari.. Will I ever hear? My Brother used to say that when people fall for someone, Heart plays a major role. He says that it will ache whenever you think of losing them. One moment will come in life, when we realize that this is the person for whom our heart would like to respond and It is Pari for me.

Me and Kiran were playing a game and were shouting with excitement. Mukund was looking at us and he started speaking philosophy.

'Few days back, you people used to sleep like pigs but now you wake up early and sometimes you cook breakfast for us.

Few days back, you people rarely smiled, but now you people laugh like hyenas'

Others were laughing at us!

He continued 'Few days back, you people were lazy, goal less horses, but now you have become hard working donkeys.'

Kiran shouted at him,'I don't understand whether you are praising me? You say pigs..hyenas..donkeys?'

'Why will you understand? You used to be very smart but now a days you are behaving like a monkey' One of my roommates countered.

And Mukund continued, 'What has love made you into? We feel pity for you!'

Our meaning less happy conversation lasted the whole day.. And the Sunday ended when I slept thinking about Pari.. Thinking about my Pari..

-Arjun Krishna

ArjunPari#55 Saturday 20July2013 Because I am in love with you Pari..Oh no..no..Its Jessi..

I was walking in the beach near my home. Pari was running towards me shouting my name. I turned back. She hugged me. Cool sea breezes and sharp sun rises were touching us. She was in my arms and I said ‘I love you Pari’.

‘Wake up Arjun! Let’s get ready. Pari will be waiting for us!’

We got ready. We were waiting for her near her room and someone closed my eyes. Her hands were cool and she was wearing a leather banded watch. I recognized it. It was Neha, She was wearing a jeans and kurta, I asked immediately.

‘Is this dress your’s?’

‘No! Pari’s. You recognized it!’

‘She wore this when we watched a Hindi movie long ago.’

‘Oh My God! You remember every detail of her’ and I realized that Pari was standing behind me and I stopped talking.

We reached Sunanda’s home at 10. She was waiting for us. Kabir joined us after 1 hour. We started cooking for us. Pari was cutting vegetables. I was with onions. Kiran was sitting idle. Sunanda was with rotis. We were all crying in few minutes because of onions, but were laughing out because of silly jokes which Kiran was playing.

We were watching movie 'Ye maya chesavey'(what magic did you do).
I was translating for her. She felt that I was translating great, so I continued.

(Watch video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcxmyCa2EUE)

Naga: Blue suits you a lot!

Samantha: Really?

Naga: Yeah! Why do you keep looking back?

Samantha: If my dad sees me talking to you, I am dead meat!

Naga: Ohh!

Samantha: How old are you?

Naga: 22

Samantha: I’m 24. It’s Okay! If my dad asks me, I’ll say you are like my younger brother to me.

            What happened? You forgot something?

Naga: I don’t wanna be your brother Jessi.

Samantha: I don’t either, I already have one. That’s enough! Painful brothers and all!

Naga: No. No. I too have a younger sister. I will accept everyone in this world as my sister here after except you.

Samantha: Why?

Naga: Because I am in Love with you Pari..

Oh!! No.. No.. It’s Jessi Jessi..

Everyone became silent. Pari stood up with surprise. I was feeling embarrassed. Kiran paused the movie. Everyone was staring at me. Those few seconds I felt hell. Pari went to Kiran. Sat beside him and played the movie, everyone continued watching movie. I wanted to shout out with happiness. I wanted to shout ‘I Love you Pari’.. ‘I Love you Pari’..

I didn’t know that I took out her name instead of Jessi. It was a reflex. Not in my control. I wanted to share my feelings with whole world now but I have to wait. I have to wait until Pari accepts me. I will wait with all my patience. I will wait for you Pari and I will Love you for this second, for this minute, for this hour, for this day, for this life..

-Arjun Krishna

ArjunPari#54 Friday 19July2013 Now in 5 seconds you will leave me alone and I will be longing to see you..

When I woke up there was a message on my mobile and it was from Pari.

“Arjun! Thank you for yesterday.. I felt good..(I smiled) Nice work with the poem.. I liked it so much.. Good Morning”

How will Pari know that I am not that smart with Hindi. I messaged her back.

“It is a very good morning.. Wish you the same.. But to admit the truth.. It is all Kiran's hard work :D”

I thought for a while and messaged again.

“Look out for more surprises.. :D I liked that smile on your face.. I would do anything for that..”

It is Friday again and I started hating this day long ago. How will I spend time with Pari if I am not at office? I have to search for an opportunity every time. What reason will I create this time? I was thinking all the day but the courage I had was not enough. I need some support. Whole day passed thinking and trying to ask Pari to come out with me. My heart was about to ache and she solved my problem..

We were seated in a BMTC bus leaving after office. I was trying to tell her that I don’t want to miss a valuable day in our life but words were not coming out. Kiran and Pari started speaking about weekend plans. It was clear that we had no plans.

‘I am going to Sunanda’s home to have some fun tomorrow. Her parents will not be there, to give her company.’ Pari stated.

So it is impossible to meet her tomorrow. How god? How?

How to see her tomorrow?

‘Kabir will be coming to entertain. We will be cooking, playing, watching movies and will do lot of other stuff. It would be fun tomorrow.’ Pari added intensity to my pain.

I am looking for a moment to burst out. Pari don’t go.. Stay with me.. I will feel good.. Please stay and stay with me..

‘Arjun!’ Pari was looking into my eyes.

‘Yes!’I was staring into her eyes.

‘Why don’t you people come with me?’ I felt like shouting out with happiness.

‘But would it be okay with Kabir and Sunanda?’ I asked her.

‘Stop behaving funny Arjun! I know you wanted to go with her.. Stop acting.. Pari we are coming!’. She smiled at me and I felt great.

At last I got an opportunity and I was as happy as a monkey which got a banana to eat. I was feeling like heaven. We had a casual talk about office stuff and had fun. At next stop, we will get down and will see her the next morning. I don’t want to miss her even for a second. I could feel that.. Inside my heart.. It is love for her.. Love for her..

We were about to get down.. Kiran stood up and said, ‘will wait for you.. Go drop Pari at her room’.

‘What?’ I shouted. His eyes were shining with happiness.

We were having a little walk and she said ‘I am leaving on 2 September Morning and my welcome party is on 7^th September evening. About 45 days more in Bangalore.’

I stopped walking and said ‘It is 44 days.. You will leave Banaglore then.. You will leave me.. And now in 5 seconds you will leave me here..Alone! I will be longing to see you and you will be back after 12 hours.’

She was in surprise. She smiled and said ‘Good night Arjun! See you tomorrow..’

‘See you.’ See you soon. See you Pari.

-Arjun Pari