ArjunPari#25 Thursday 20June2013 Pari declared that she will leave us soon and I am trying to heal my heart.!

I had a dream today.  Pari was standing in front of me. She was staring into my eyes. I could see that tears were rolling inside her eyes. I was in pain; I never wanted to see tears in her eyes. I wanted to know the reason and I tried to make her smile. At last I succeeded but she said 'Good bye Arjun! I can't stay long. I have to go.' And I stood seeing her go away from me. I woke up with a pain in my heart. It was true Love, it brings happiness as well as pain. I am falling for her and I fear missing her..

Me and Kiran met Pari in the bus. I do not know why we meet as a coincidence every time. We always have a topic to speak and play jokes. And today's topic was about Kiran's future girlfriend. He was dreaming for a goddess with super powers specially an immortal one. I don't think so he will get married at all in future. I and Pari were laughing at him.

We got down at our office and we have to cross a road. It rained heavily last night. There was a pool of water on the road. She saw that and said you jump over it?' I asked 'What?' and Kiran declared that it is too easy. 'Is it that easy.? Let's have a bet then!  and we agreed with her.

Kiran jumped over it but it was a miss, he landed into water. It spoiled his pants and shoes. Still I tried. I shouldn't have done it. I too spoiled my shoes and pants. We were watching Pari. I was thinking 'Why was she interested in spoiling her clothes?'. She jumped and it was a perfect jump. She was still dry and fresh. We lost the game and we bought her chocolates. She said smiling 'The things which we earn does not give as much happiness as the things which we get by winning!'. What she said was true in my case. I wanted to win her heart and it will bring happiness that nothing can make a substitute.

We were having lunch. She was speaking 'I spoke with our HR(Human Resources Manager) today and she said I can leave this job by August 30. August 30 will be my last working day here.' My heart slipped, If Pari saw my eyes then she would have come to know that i was feeling bad about her leaving so early. 'After 2 months?' Kiran shouted on her. 'Yes!' We can see a spark of happiness in her eyes and I have no reason to feel bad, it is just that I will be longing to see her smile. She continued 'On 30 August you will say good bye to me. I will start my new job on September 1 in Delhi with my Father. I am excited' and I was in a hurry to make her feel what I feel for her. But how was that possible! I am not yet ready and I do not have enough courage. I have to wait but I can see that if I made it late, it will be too much late. I may miss things that I want to be with me.. happiness, happiness and more happiness.

After a little thought I concluded that I will not get back. Once I have stepped forward, I will take this to end. However it will be,I will take it to an end..!!

-Arjun Krishna