ArjunPari#34 Saturday 29June2013 Pari, these days I am not me! I am not myself! It is because of you.


"Pari, these days I am not me! I am not myself! It is because of you. I was looking to get away from you but I am being dragged back by my own conscience. I don't want to be a freak… like me, now in present. I want to get rid of the fear which keeps me think and fear living away from you. Why don't you come into my life, there will be no fear, no freaking out, no madness but only you..Only you.. Only you my love..'


Pari's face was expressionless and she was staring into my eyes. My eyes were wet. She asked slowly 'What are you whispering.. Speak out..!!'. I could hear Kiran laugh.

I asked Pari if she understood anything I spoke and I faced a 'No' without getting those words out. I was trying again but my voice was not audible to myself. Kiran was laughing out more loudly, I was losing my temper and I shouted 'Stop laughing at me!!'

I was on my bed and Kiran was seriously watching me and asked 'Am I that loud?'.
'No I just had a bad dream!!' I answered and sat up.

'Today we have to call Mounica or else we are dead' I said. Kiran did not notice my words 'What was that dream?'.I was still not awake and I said 'I was trying to propose P..' My eyes opened wide and I realized I was in reality and have to cover the situation and continued 'Propose a new idea to Chand and he refused it'. He laughed out and said 'Are you even dreaming of him while sleeping. Little poor fellow! I thought of something else.'  I diverted him again, almost shouting 'Call Mounica now..!! Or else I will kill you and she will bury you.' I was smiling. He said politely ' I am on call with Kavitha, she kept me on hold that is why I spoke to you. You go ahead and I will join you.' And he went out into balcony.

I brushed and rang Mounica. It was out of reach. I tried again, but was not able to connect. Then I reached for Madhu Uncle, Mounica's dad. He asked me to call her brother as they both were together. His brother, Ravi lifted and said 'Long time, no call??' I smiled and apologized for that. He said they were going to visit a new bungalow somewhere in Jubilee hills as it is for sale. The phone was in Mounica's hand; by the time I knew that was her, she started pouring all curses into my ear. I muted my ears for few seconds and asked 'How are you?' She instantly melted and asked 'How are you? I am doing great here..' and I asked 'When did you come Hyderabad?'.  'It is almost one month!!' she answered.
‘Then why didn’t you tell us?’ I enquired.
‘I was busy with brother’s marriage. I met many people and did many things. I have many reasons for not being able to call. What’s your excuse?’  I smiled and spoke of something not related.
‘When is your brother’s marriage?’
‘It is suspense. You will come to know once the invitation card is in your hands. ‘I nodded to what she said.
She was making fun of me and said that my brother called her during his engagement to let her know the good news. She scolded me for not informing her. She utilized every moment to scold me. My ears were almost red with pain. And then Kiran entered the room and he looked like angel to me. I handed over my phone to him.
I was looking at his expressions; there were no signs of disappointment from Mounica’s side. Everything was cool. I wondered how Kiran makes everyone so cool. I wished if I was a little like him, I would have been beside Pari by now.. I wish… 

-Arjun Krishna